Christmas Book Recomendation

During Relief Society last Sunday, our teacher forwent the concept of age, and read us a children's book.  Oh how I love children's books!  The book she chose was I Believe in Santa Claus by Diane G. Adamson.  This book makes creative comparisons of Santa to the Savior Jesus Christ.  I believe it is a wonderful way to teach children how Santa is a representation of Christ and his life, and teaches the purpose of Santa during the Christmas season.

Well... At least I'm letting you know!

It really has been forever, and I have been through a lot and I have not yet written much of it down. Right now I have a draft of a post about Zane's proposal to me, but obviously I cannot even get that finished! So I thought I would rewrite everything that has been going on in our lives now.

Zane proposed December 8, 2008 in the Cedar City Library. I was completely surprised because he had mentioned he wanted to check out the Divine Comedy and I had no suspicions that evening. After handing me an illustrated copy from the bottom shelf he tried to pull out the ring. I was going to give him the book back prematurely when he said, "Look at the angels!" I looked down at the illustrations again and thought in my head There are angels all over these pictures, why does he want me to look at them? When I finally put the book down, I was shocked to see him kneeling with a ring in his hand. He then used my full name and proposed. When his mother asked if I said yes Zane's reply was, "No. She said, 'Of course.'"
(This proposal came after Zane's courageous attempt at asking my father for my hand and
the news leaking out far earlier than we planned.)

We have made many preparations since then. We have a new basement apartment I have already moved into. It is a small (and sometimes smelly) place. I have had very little time to clean because I have had so much homework and work to do.

This last weekend I had the great opportunity to go to the Manti Temple for my first time, and it was wonderful.

I have had two bridal showers- both of which I will remember for a long time and am so grateful for everyone who came!

We have sent out the invitations and are now only six days away until we are sealed for eternity! I am so blessed to have Zane in my life and look forward to all of the time we will have together!

Top Songs in My Life Currently

1. Maneater- Nelly Furtado
2. The Middle- Jimmy Eat World
3. Calling You- Blue October
4. What's Left of Me- Nick Lachey
5. When it All Falls Apart- The Veronicas
6. Walking on Broken Glass- Annie Lennox
7. Apologize- One Republic
8. Rain- Breaking Benjamin

I know... it's a weird combination of music... but that's just how I am. These songs seems to comfort me more than any others right now so that's why they are on the top of my list. I just wish that I could play them over and over until I felt better, but we all know that is not going to happen. Maybe they will just help for the time being...

I've won!

Well, here it is folks, my first blogger award, I would like to thank everyone who made this possible!





This Prestigious award was given to me by my wonderful cousin Christopher Clark whose blog can be found at http://www.elderclark.com/. He has some awesome things to say and has spent a lot of time in making his blog fun and informative for his mission in only four days! Read some of the stuff he's put up and enjoy the fab pictures of his sweet muscles!

So, there are rules to this award.
1. Post the logo on your blog.
2. Add a link to the person who nominated you.
3. Nominate 7 (or however many you want really) other people for this award and add links to their blog.
4. Leave a message for the people that you nominated!

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I am going to begin by nominating another cousin... Casi! http://mama2nile.blogspot.com/ She is a new mother who has amazing writing skills! She also has the great talent of expressing her emotions from her life within her blogs, and many of them have even left me near tears!

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Next, I would like to nominated another family member (they're the blogs I visit all the time!)... Royell! Royell is awesome at taking pictures and making sure that they go up along with her blogs! She focuses a lot of her blogs on the family and what is going on and that is awesome because she lives so far away. But I do not nominate her only for this, but because she has awesome writing skills that aren't usually seen on her blogs. She is one to write- or call- her family and check up on them! She sincerily cares for each person and has a way of making each one feel special through these notes or comments. Thank you! She can be found at http://adamroyellphong.blogspot.com/.

Growth where Growth is Undesired

Golly... I learn so many things so often that I should be more faithful when writing something here on the blog. Right now I am marveling (not with a- persay- good connotation) at how life can change so quickly. Never before in my life have I been so confused at what my Heavenly Father's plan is for me. I suppose I have know what it is, it's just that little upsets happen that turn me around until I am so dizzy I lose focus. It's amazing that it can change even from one day to the next.

Life, for me, has always been about learning and improving. I love to learn and I desperately want to improve myself. But these past few days have left me lost with what Heavenly Father would want me to learn. I was searching through all of my personal understanding to discover why I was so lost. But a good talk with my mom (bless her soul for putting up with me) set me in the right direction. I have been a very independent person, but I am learning now that I need to have more of my Heavenly Father's influence in my life. I need to allow his guidance to direct me. I guess I get my mind so set on the way I think it should be (and the way I think Heavenly Father thinks it should be) that I forget His influence and council. I am going to let him guide me more with everything that I do, but I hope things don't go completely astray from how they have been.

I also want to mention that the storm that rolled through today was helpful to me in more than one way. I love the rainy weather and could not be more thankful that it came when it did, but I also got to meet my neighbors, who I have neglected for so long! I am such a horrible person when it comes to being social- but I truly enjoyed getting to know them and hope to visit some time soon.

A special thanks is in order for my mother- whom I love with all my heart. The sweetie is going to come and visit me while I struggle through this trial, but I know that we are going to have fun while she is here!


This picture was taken outside during the thunder strom... it looked cooler in life.