"Whoever first said there is a light at the end of the tunnel is an idiot... I've never had the privilege of traveling with such extravagance. Yep... Wide open stormy or hot weather for me... I need an umbrella."
-latest Facebook status update.
I know I am no different than anyone else... we all have many struggles to our few successes. But the most difficult struggle for me has been my current. It's not because anything is particularly difficult. In fact it has to do with feeling stagnant. I have very little to do. I have had very few visitors (kinda hard to have visitors when they are all busy). I can't even get out of my house because I have no car to take me somewhere and the weather is too cold for me to take my little one anywhere. I have always been a busy person with extra curricular activities during high school, and too many classes and responsibilities during college. I never imagined I would be so tired of doing nothing. I went from doing it all to nothing. I only desire to caution all of you who feel as if being spread thin is a bad thing... Enjoy it, because it is a million times better than doing the same thing day, after day, after day, after day, after, well, you get the point!
Oh, and just as a little kick to this, the only break in my monotonous life will be getting my wisdom teeth removed in a few weeks!
January 24, 2011
January 21, 2011
Dreams, Dreams, Dreams, Dreams
Of late, my nighttime, has been filled with quite entertaining and wild dreams. The ghostly nature of dreams has always had a strange affect on the way I see life. Many of my fears come from experiences within dreams (I have no idea what this says about my living life). Believing... it's a trait I might suggest I have, and when I dream I believe (in the moment). Of course, there is a point where I steer myself away from this beliefe, and that is usually when I wake up in true reality. I mention this to provide understanding for why the following impacted me.
The beginning of the dream is of little significance to me, because it stems from a game I have recently been playing on the Wii. However, there is importance. The direction one plays when playing a game such as Donkey Kong or Mario (various versions) is from the left to right. But when I began the dream I was headed left. As it shifted to the more serious and impacting part, I retraced my steps, heading right and passed where I began.
The dream remained a game. I (whatever form I took- for I took many) began by coming to my first of many obstacles. I cannot recall all of them, but certain ones were quite impactful. The first one had me emerging from a garage-like hole, looking out over a quiet lake. I was supposed to continue by following the rock pathway to another door quite close, on my right. I could not see the door until I came around a corner. As I reached the peak of the corner and saw my goal a person appeared just out in front of me... he was not blocking my path and was familiar to me (I cannot remember who). We spoke, and our conversation was friendly, but when I wanted to continue my journey, the being began throwing stones at me (and a companion who joined me in my journey). I was surprised and in distress. I returned to the garage where I was safe from the pelting. It was there, my partner and I found some sort of bucket-like coverings to protect us. In our attempt for the door I was forced to journey into the water, although I was not keen on being wet. The buckets protected us from our fiendish friend and we were able to come through the door.
The next obstacle is more difficult to remember, but I have a gist of how it went. I entered a room that looked a lot like an elementary school theater; on the far end was a stage about three feet off of the floor. Between the stage and I was a group of people, one of which accosted me and demanded my love belong to them. My answer was a simple no, but the person felt dejected and sulked about. From behind me, something evil had followed me into the room, I hid on the ceiling where I was partially concealed. The creature of evil, whether human or beast, searched for me, but could not find me. My hiding place was only revealed because of the dejected lover who willing gave the creature my secure location. I began to run again.
Somehow I was placed on the top of a building. The structure was still located in the middle of water and had a sister building just to my right. I was experienced in what was going on and knew there was a challenge for me. I saw a wave of colorful water (not natural) start coming from the other building. I knew I had to get away from it. I dove off from my building directly and started swimming away from it. There was another person who was confused by the strange water and situation but followed me anyway. We both made it to land quickly and had no problems because we ran away early enough.
I then passed a truck with a couple that I knew and realized they had watched the entire thing. I announced that I hoped they saw how everything was done. There was no other interaction because I was then in a building where the couple was going to be surprised by family. I was upset, because I didn't feel they had learned enough...
This is where I awoke to my baby babbling over the monitor.
The beginning of the dream is of little significance to me, because it stems from a game I have recently been playing on the Wii. However, there is importance. The direction one plays when playing a game such as Donkey Kong or Mario (various versions) is from the left to right. But when I began the dream I was headed left. As it shifted to the more serious and impacting part, I retraced my steps, heading right and passed where I began.
The dream remained a game. I (whatever form I took- for I took many) began by coming to my first of many obstacles. I cannot recall all of them, but certain ones were quite impactful. The first one had me emerging from a garage-like hole, looking out over a quiet lake. I was supposed to continue by following the rock pathway to another door quite close, on my right. I could not see the door until I came around a corner. As I reached the peak of the corner and saw my goal a person appeared just out in front of me... he was not blocking my path and was familiar to me (I cannot remember who). We spoke, and our conversation was friendly, but when I wanted to continue my journey, the being began throwing stones at me (and a companion who joined me in my journey). I was surprised and in distress. I returned to the garage where I was safe from the pelting. It was there, my partner and I found some sort of bucket-like coverings to protect us. In our attempt for the door I was forced to journey into the water, although I was not keen on being wet. The buckets protected us from our fiendish friend and we were able to come through the door.
The next obstacle is more difficult to remember, but I have a gist of how it went. I entered a room that looked a lot like an elementary school theater; on the far end was a stage about three feet off of the floor. Between the stage and I was a group of people, one of which accosted me and demanded my love belong to them. My answer was a simple no, but the person felt dejected and sulked about. From behind me, something evil had followed me into the room, I hid on the ceiling where I was partially concealed. The creature of evil, whether human or beast, searched for me, but could not find me. My hiding place was only revealed because of the dejected lover who willing gave the creature my secure location. I began to run again.
Somehow I was placed on the top of a building. The structure was still located in the middle of water and had a sister building just to my right. I was experienced in what was going on and knew there was a challenge for me. I saw a wave of colorful water (not natural) start coming from the other building. I knew I had to get away from it. I dove off from my building directly and started swimming away from it. There was another person who was confused by the strange water and situation but followed me anyway. We both made it to land quickly and had no problems because we ran away early enough.
I then passed a truck with a couple that I knew and realized they had watched the entire thing. I announced that I hoped they saw how everything was done. There was no other interaction because I was then in a building where the couple was going to be surprised by family. I was upset, because I didn't feel they had learned enough...
This is where I awoke to my baby babbling over the monitor.
January 9, 2011
The latest Tron
My husband, father, and I went to see the latest instalment of Tron last night. I was particularly excited because I have always enjoyed watching the old 1982 movie. I was extremely excited as the opening scene and title played (lines create city streets and then camera rotates and "Tron" appears between skyscrapers). The story began great and as expected. However, I was greatly disappointed with the entire storyline, especially because Tron, the prior hero and significant character, was demoted to a simple demoralized role. Although I was not pleased with the story, I found great enjoyment in the techno music (film score by Daft Punk). I was also very pleased with the visual effects. Overall I wasn't disappointed, just unsatisfied.
December 30, 2010
Christmas Book Recomendation
During Relief Society last Sunday, our teacher forwent the concept of age, and read us a children's book. Oh how I love children's books! The book she chose was I Believe in Santa Claus by Diane G. Adamson. This book makes creative comparisons of Santa to the Savior Jesus Christ. I believe it is a wonderful way to teach children how Santa is a representation of Christ and his life, and teaches the purpose of Santa during the Christmas season.
March 8, 2009
Well... At least I'm letting you know!
It really has been forever, and I have been through a lot and I have not yet written much of it down. Right now I have a draft of a post about Zane's proposal to me, but obviously I cannot even get that finished! So I thought I would rewrite everything that has been going on in our lives now.
Zane proposed December 8, 2008 in the Cedar City Library. I was completely surprised because he had mentioned he wanted to check out the Divine Comedy and I had no suspicions that evening. After handing me an illustrated copy from the bottom shelf he tried to pull out the ring. I was going to give him the book back prematurely when he said, "Look at the angels!" I looked down at the illustrations again and thought in my head There are angels all over these pictures, why does he want me to look at them? When I finally put the book down, I was shocked to see him kneeling with a ring in his hand. He then used my full name and proposed. When his mother asked if I said yes Zane's reply was, "No. She said, 'Of course.'"
(This proposal came after Zane's courageous attempt at asking my father for my hand and
the news leaking out far earlier than we planned.)
We have made many preparations since then. We have a new basement apartment I have already moved into. It is a small (and sometimes smelly) place. I have had very little time to clean because I have had so much homework and work to do.
This last weekend I had the great opportunity to go to the Manti Temple for my first time, and it was wonderful.
I have had two bridal showers- both of which I will remember for a long time and am so grateful for everyone who came!
We have sent out the invitations and are now only six days away until we are sealed for eternity! I am so blessed to have Zane in my life and look forward to all of the time we will have together!
Zane proposed December 8, 2008 in the Cedar City Library. I was completely surprised because he had mentioned he wanted to check out the Divine Comedy and I had no suspicions that evening. After handing me an illustrated copy from the bottom shelf he tried to pull out the ring. I was going to give him the book back prematurely when he said, "Look at the angels!" I looked down at the illustrations again and thought in my head There are angels all over these pictures, why does he want me to look at them? When I finally put the book down, I was shocked to see him kneeling with a ring in his hand. He then used my full name and proposed. When his mother asked if I said yes Zane's reply was, "No. She said, 'Of course.'"
(This proposal came after Zane's courageous attempt at asking my father for my hand and
the news leaking out far earlier than we planned.)
We have made many preparations since then. We have a new basement apartment I have already moved into. It is a small (and sometimes smelly) place. I have had very little time to clean because I have had so much homework and work to do.
This last weekend I had the great opportunity to go to the Manti Temple for my first time, and it was wonderful.
I have had two bridal showers- both of which I will remember for a long time and am so grateful for everyone who came!
We have sent out the invitations and are now only six days away until we are sealed for eternity! I am so blessed to have Zane in my life and look forward to all of the time we will have together!
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